A gorgeous clear San Francisco day. Strolling downhill from a meeting up at the medical center on how to keep the “abortion pills” available to any woman who wants and needs them in these troubled backlash times. The medications have been approved for over twenty years - I helped bring them here from Europe thirty years back - and work effectively and safely and are utilized in over half of all abortions in our country, but the fringe minority of misguided “right to life” activists want to ban them, of course. And energized by the voiding of Roe v. Wade and more “conservative” (a misnomer - weren’t conservatives committed to stating out of Americans private lives?) courts, they just might win - resulting in later abortions, worsened health impacts, high costs, and even dead women. Not that they really care; they just want to “win.” And so my brain churns on, fired up by anger over this issue and the discussion we’ve just had, plus the fact that as many have noted, walking frees the mind to go where it might.
Hungry, thinking a lunchtime veggie burrito would hit the spot as I stop at a corner red light. There’s a young guy, stapling a “Mush Love” flier on a lamppost, with an east bay phone # saying “Text or call for menu.” My brain flips to another of my professional issues, and I smile ask “May I have one?”
Sure, he says. Call us up and we’ll set you right up. Good shrooms!
No thanks, but good to know. But aren’t you worried about getting busted?
Naah, it’s legal here now.
Well sorta, maybe… Dealing it like this might not be though. A guy was busted down on Haight Street for setting up shop to sell shrooms just recently.
Ahh, bummer, man. Listen, maybe you want to buy some right now?
No thanks. But I’m actually into this realm professionally and support good research and safe medical use, including right up there at UCSF, but -
Ah really? Cool! Do you think they would buy some? We’d work out a quantity deal…
Er, no, it has to be very pure, controlled, for real medical research, and-
Maybe they’d want some for people afterwards, you know, like a pharmacy thing? For anybody who wants more? We could do that! And hey, do you know any docs who might want some? Or, anybody?
- Etc etc. Nice kid, a bit hyper. Young capitalist, heavily into marketing. And maybe into his own product a bit much too, “high on his own supply” as the old saying went. Evangelistic, even, at least where there might be money to be made before the glut and/or crackdown that may be coming too.
“Psychedelic Medicine” is the big buzz (sorry) now. Michael Pollan’s brilliant 2018 book “How to Change Your Mind” was a bestseller and last year he did a very good mini-series too. Some of the best universities in the nation now host well-funded psychedelics research centers, with heartening results showing varying degrees of effectiveness of substances such as psilocybin, MDMA, ketamine, LSD and more for problems such as PTSD, depression, even addiction. It’s what I call Psychedelics 3.0, where 1.0 was the long history of often-religious use in cultures around the world, and 2.0 was the flourishing of careful use and research by figures such as Aldous Huxley, Timothy Leary and others in the 1950s and 1960s, plus quieter experimental use therapists and a bit of nefarious use by the CIA and others in the military seeking to “weaponize” such substances. That all blew up in the 1960s, resulting in a backlash and shutdown of virtually all such research. But by the 1980s some ambitious activists such as Rick Doblin and his Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies - MAPS - began the long expensive slog of bringing legitimate research back into the mainstream. Their progress has been unavoidably slower than many might like, but also truly amazing given the political obstacles.
But the risk of another backlash persists. Leary became a psychedelic evangelist, prompting Richard Nixon to call him the most dangerous man alive. Ironically, one of the ideals of those taking big doses of LSD in the 1960s was to dissolve the ego, but for Leary and too many others it seemed to have the opposite effect. Although percentage-wise they were small, there were many psychedelic casualties who never quite came back. Predators such as Charlie Manson utilized drugs on his cult followers. The profit motive fueled unprecedented free-market wheeling and dealing, from kids selling little baggies of pot to massive, and violent, cartel-type operations. And the government drug warriors and media seized on that and shut everything down, while also shutting many users away behind bars, to no good end and often training them to be hardened convicts.
Now the psychedelic evangelists want few or no restrictions on their practices, weather training and credentials, protocols, etc, and they can charge what they want. And many seem to see these substances as an end rather than a means, making it a way of life. Some adopt the self-aggrandizing term “psychonaut.” Which seems OK to me if nobody is hurt, but when, as moderator of a panel on psychedelic medical research at UCSF a few years ago I dared quote the revered Ram Dass’ (formerly Richard Alpert PhD, Leary’s partner in pioneering research at Harvard) admonition “once you get the message, hang up the phone,” hisses and boos came from some in the audience. Booing Ram Dass! Now undeniably many have learned much from such substances, maybe even a few becoming “enlightened.” But add money to evangelism, as with fundamentalist churches, and it any surprise there are bad outcomes, abuses including sexual, and rampant profiteering?
Marijuana was a striking case study. The AIDS epidemic heightened stories of sick people, including cancer patients, helped, at least symptomatically, by marijuana use, and a large underground facilitating such use emerged, followed by tough-fought but successful campaigns to legalize the herb - first for medical use, and then generically. I was drawn into this from the medical side, from helping patients individually to policy debates at medical associations and the California governor’s panel on marijuana. Contentious work, but eventually we “won.” The medical benefits have long been overstated but for many people not negligible. While I’m still very glad, even proud, that less pot users are now incarcerated in our profiteering prison-industrial complex, the outcome has otherwise been so troubled it’s hard to not use the word “disaster.”
And that comes mainly down to perhaps the most addictive drug of all - money. Drug dealers - and yes that includes pot - are textbook free mark capitalists, no matter how much high-minded gloss they might try to lay on it. That’s just reality, whatever value judgments one might add. In California’s case the big growers and dealers flooded in, smaller ones were marginalized, supply exploded and price plummeted, regulatory and tax bureaucracies blossomed like poison oak, and the few got richer while others were driven down and out - all of this predicted but poo-pooed. Down on Haight Street the “dispensary” needs guards for their daily cash haul, and each time I see the customers lined up for the morning opening I’m reminded of methadone clinics or corner liquor stores. But at least junkies and alcoholics tend to admit they’re addicted. Meanwhile the demand for all kinds of addiction treatment, yes, including for pot but especially for our ongoing plagues of opioids, fentanyl, cocaine, alcohol, tobacco, you name it, in residential settings defunded long ago, so far exceeds the demand and funding that’s it’s a hugely tragic never-ending scenario. We could do much better, but too much profit on the dealers’ side and not enough funding on the treatment side, coupled with some long-disproven bad drug war policies, render the overall effort impotent. And so it goes, or rather, doesn’t. Prohibition doesn’t work. Abortion pills and various psychedelics will find a way to those who want and/or need them, for better or worse. But I fear these black or grey-market scenarios might again play out, with too many casualties that could have been avoided.
Oops. Derailed by my own rumination, I’ve stood here through at least a couple red/yellow/green light changes. Young Mr. Mush Love has now stated his posters on all four corners of the intersection. He waves at me, smiling, and I shout a goodbye and “Be careful out there,” quoting an old TV cop show whose name I can’t recall, and walk on, having “flashbacks” to my longtime friend and mentor Dr. Dave Smith, now a reasoned advocate of renewed psychedelic research, as a young newly-minted physician from the same school I’d just left, over 55 years ago, walking these same streets and seeing new “hippies” using some of same illegal substances he was researching in the laboratory and seeing in his clinic. And then founding the fabled Haight-Ashbury free clinic, model for other such places nationwide, providing care of all kinds for millions, and Rock Medicine, serving concertgoers who’d had too much or the wrong drug or both, freaking out backstage in the “space tent” while protesting “but they told me it was organic and vegan, man.” At least most were kept out of hospitals and jails, free to “party” again, maybe a little bit wiser. Maybe.
So perhaps some things in this realm are coming full circle, in at least some ways, and some real good will come from all this turmoil. Later, when some of my thoughts get posted on an online neighborhood news outlet, the post is immediately flooded with other dealers hoping to sell psychedelics, thus illustrating my concerns. Business is business. I hope Mr. Mush doesn’t get busted, I think. It’s all so complex. But maybe all this will work out fine, for most, at least. Maybe. Hopefully. Nobody really knows.
Thank you Steve Heilig! Another great story, or should I say journey down the road to enlightenment, or at least good health. The road you describe so well is littered with them hypocrisy and shortsighted Capitalists and politicians and the foibles of us poor humans of our addictions and endless hamster wheel of how do we learn from our mistakes. I’m not sure but I think I see a glimmer of optimism here. I’ll reread again and tell you over some legal chocolate mushrooms what I think. Thank you for writing this!